-i don't know...i just hate everything about me. i hate the way i look everything i say. i'm not doing any good for anyone. i'm not pretty, don't tell me i am i'm chubby and i have bumpy skin... i'm the reason everyone was fight tonight. it was stupid **** too. my brother called me childish. for some reason it pissed me off that he wouldn't quit saying that, stupid right? that wasn't that bad... i can handle stupid little things like that. i was still okay. but my mom got mad. tbh i'm scared of my mom. she's wonderful and i'll forever love her but...when she's upset...i'm terrified...that's a whole other story... but anyway my brother hates lectures i guess and that mixed with my mother... it's loud. that's all i'll say. it hurts though. i feel like i started the fight... no this isn't the only thing that's happened to me. my very first memory is of my parent fighting and going to jail. over the next i dont know the rest of my life they'd fight every month. i hate broken glass...i can't stand the sound of shattering glass... i feel like everyone's a liar. i feel like i'm a liar. the last time my parent got divorced...i convinced my parents to let me be home schooled. they don't know why. i wanted to be away from everyone. they were all happy, strong people. i was always judged and ignored. i guess u could say i was bullied for being shy. i made friends sorta. they let me laugh with them i had fun sometimes. most days i felt sick of pretending... i isolated myself. recently over the past 3 years there were a lot of deaths in my family....cancer, murder....my uncle was murdered...they told me the details...i don't think they realized how that might traumatize me. not that anyone ever bothers to ask if i'm okay. i'm shy ugly isolated. i'm tired of the fighting. i'm tired of no one ever asking if i'm okay. i'm tired of being told not to cry. i tired of faking a smile. i'm tired of not knowing why i'm here. i'm tired of being let down. i'm tired of being ashamed of lies. i'm tired. i am so tired....that why maybe eternal sleep is what i need...yes more has happened to me...but i just cant type it in a public place anymore.....try out this website! it will help you!
www.yourlifeyourvoice.comPleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee go talk to an adult you trust to help you. Suicide sucks completly. It shouldn't be an option, although you can't see, there are people who care about you. So stay strong. No killing ok?
Look suicide is never the answer you probally didnt cause the fight life will go on im sure if u open yourself up youll find u feel much better u wont be home forever. u can always leave one day
Please don't hurt yourself, please. Talk to someone. If you can't then please call (1-800 SUICIDE)
I'm truly sorry you feel this way.. You should talk to someone you trust. Suicide is never the solution, trust me. I was depressed for a lot of years, and I've had the exact same thoughts as you do.
If you see a therapist of some sort, you can get the help you need, and you can turn it all around. Never give up hope, then things will get better eventually :)
Keep fighting, keep hoping and keep dreaming, and things will turn around for you..
I really hope, you've changed your mind.
Huge hug!
try the suicide line or a counselor, this hatred comes from the external stressors in your life and the sadness inside of you. it is GOOD that you wrote out your worries online and said it OUT LOUD. i can relate to many of the struggles you have experienced and there are millions of people throughout the world who have felt the same way. im college majoring in psychology so i can help people who are suffering like i once did. there is hope even in the darkest places and you have already done so much good by reaching out for help. stay strong and never give up, maybe you can help people because you truly understand.
I can understand why you are sad. Three deaths, one was a murder, and everything you are living through, First please do not take it out on yourself. You are not responsible for the actions of others and do not or did not have any control. Do not hate yourself, because you have nothing to do with what
is going on. You are the victim. A liar. No not you. Honest, pure, beautiful that is the best description.
It is a big package inside and it needs to be released. Find a trusted person such as a counselor
and get better answers than suicide. It is so final sweetheart. You need to start living. Your brother is
fighting with you because he is miserable and needs to sound off. Please realize it is not you. The
parents are responsible not the children. Children need to be protected by their parents not the other way around. I care, Please live. Get help
Think of when you head off to college. Think of you getting a six digit job. Buying fancy cars. Massive houses. Guys falling at your feet. Living on the beach. Not a worry in the world, but is the tide going to reach your toes. Imagine you going to hollywood and a big director sees you walking down the street. Your rich and famous in flashing lights. You makes millions. You donate money to institutes who help with depression. To help kids. Kids who were like you. Imagine giving motivational speeches about how it gets better. Because it always gets better. I promise.
You r here for a reason. A lot of things have happened to u, but will b ok. Dont end ur life. Everyone gets depressed sometimes. Nothing is worth ending your life over. Being pretty is not the best thing in life. Everyone has different taste and believe me, sumone somewhere thinks tht u r beautiful. U need to talk to sumone about how ur feeling. Its not good to keep things bottled up inside. Even tho I dont kno u, I care about u. I care about wat happens to u. Im goin to pray for u.
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